At a very young age, it is imprinted in us that holidays are a time for families to come together to celebrate. Holidays mark the passage of time, and as such, they hold so many memories. Holidays also magnify the loss. So here we are. The year of firsts. My first Christmas without my Mom. I am not gonna lie. Christmas really hurts this time. I am a Christmas-y kind of girl. This is my favorite time of the year, but this year, I want to yell at Karen Carpenter when the radio plays “Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas” to just shut.up (and forRead More →

Surprise! Those little things that are not planned but end up being one of the best things that ever happen to you. Picture it. 21 years ago. Sailing through life.  Two new cars. Two healthy kids. A new house. Good jobs. Life was good. Picture perfect in fact. Heck, we could have been in a Hallmark Christmas movie. But as we all know, as life goes, that is not how it always works out. What we THINK is perfect and what God KNOWS is perfect are usually 2 totally different things. I noticed something started feeling “different” and by different I mean I wasn’t feeling so greatRead More →

What if these walls could talk? Why did this even come to my mind? Because I am getting ready to PAINT, which is not my favorite thing in the world to do. As I begin to paint one of the kids’ old bedrooms (this is the fourth time it’s been painted in 16 years; everything from stripes to lime green to purple to pink), I start to wonder … what would these walls say about the family who moved into this house 16 years ago? Would they say the kids have grown up way too fast? Would they talk about all of the birthday, graduation,Read More →

30th birthday

30th birthday. On Monday my oldest child will be 30. 30! Where did the time go? I blinked. First time sleeping through the night, first steps, first words, first tooth, first haircut, first birthday. The year of firsts passed all too quick. I blinked. That sweet baby girl went to her first day of kindergarten. Little did she know that I stood at the fence and watched her play on the playground until the bell rang and she went inside (I was probably, no, most definitely crying). I blinked and that little girl was all about The Little Mermaid. If it had Little Mermaid onRead More →

The Love of a Mother

The day I have dreaded most of my life arrived. The day I thought I was prepared for (and I was woefully not), brought me to unrelenting tears. The day that I knew she would be face to face with Jesus and reunited with her family and loved ones she had lost, literally broke my heart. The day my mother passed away came all.too.soon. I honestly do not think any of us are prepared for such a loss, no matter how many times we tell ourselves we are. The loss of your mother is one of the most difficult things in life a daughter willRead More →

I love to talk. I talk so much that I go to Wal-Mart by myself because my family doesn’t want to spend 3 hours in there with me while I talk to people. Part of that I attribute to working from home and only having the dogs to talk to and part of it is because I just HOWEVER, you put me in front of a Facebook Live and I become a nervous wreck. BUT, I have made it my goal to get out of my comfort zone this year and Facebook Live is definitely one of those things that make me very uncomfortable. So,Read More →

Happy Birthday to me! On March 31, 1964, at around 6 p.m., I had the enormous pleasure of meeting my mom for the very first time. The first thing I thought of this morning was 1964? Really? When I have to scroll down to look for the year 1964 on my phone, I have to REALLY scroll. When did THAT happen?  Wasn’t David Cassidy just THE hottest thing in Tiger Beat (is that magazine around anymore?) Really, is my 35th year class reunion really THIS summer? Didn’t I JUST graduate high school? And weren’t now my adult children JUST toddlers? Goodness! Time passes in an instant. I have to confessRead More →